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I dont know why i still tak boleh move on dgn you.I kenot.seriously.I cuba tpi setiap hari i teringat kat u.WHY?? Kau sentiasa muncul dalam my mind why.please go away from my life.you are nothing to me.(emosi tetibe memalam ni)


 Ya ALLAH seandainya dia milikku maka satukanlah hatinya dgn hatiku.jika bukann maka buanglah dia dari hidupku.


sebenarnya buat masa sekarang ni aku tak bersediaa lagi utk ade apa apa relationship dgn sesiapapun.maaf aku nak fokus dgn my studies n achieve my goal first.maaf kalau perangai aku sgt annoying bila berhadapan dgn lelaki.sukahati la nak cakap aku kerek ke ape ke.its not my own business that is your busiiness.please please get a life.

Life Emira Yang Hambar

Well first of all, it has been a while since i last update my blog. Thank you to those who are kind enough to still support me in my little humble writing passion that im not really good at. Hahaha this is amusing 

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Kalau ada salah silap tu tegur-tegur lah yee

Coming back to the purpose why i am so gigih menaip abjad-abjad untuk blog ni…Well there is something in particular that i want to convey in tonight's writing.

Have you ever experienced any kind of situations where there are certain people in your life that really loves ambushing, criticizing, disparaging, belittle-ing you in any sort of way?

*well you can insert any kind of vocab that you can think of up there*

I am speaking in an experience-based, real-life, worse-case scenario here. It is not really my first time i have people around me hating me for who i am. They hate you for no solid reasons. Hahahaha sedih pulak bila baca balik my sentence ni.

These kind of people basically loves to see you fall, get down on you knees, have wounds all over your body and it is a bonus to them if you bleed to death in the process. Bleed to death tu bukan maksud literally tau. Maksudnya bila dia dah berjaya buat kau down, dia tengok kau putus asa dah tak bangun-bangun. Makanya dia menang lah tu. And kalau kau survive liku-liku kehidupan yang dia campak kat kau and kau berjaya bangkit semula pun, they are hoping that your wounds from the struggle to never healed. Orang orang macam ni jugak tak boleh tengok kau happy, senang, berjaya. Kalau kau lebih dari dia, lagilah dia menyirap dia benci kat kau.

Ada je cacat kau dia nak cari.

Ada je buruk kau dia nak jaja.

Ada je salah kau dia nak hukum.

These are canonically the guideline on how to recognize people that hates your gut.

I honestly thought that people like this only existed in Malay drama yang over the top clishe tu. But then masa zaman-zaman baru masuk asrama and menara gading lah i started to encounter this species. They are actually real . Badluck me, i was fated to have to face this people in person.

Dulu masa zaman rock kapak, perangai macam ayam sikit. Ni masa akhir tahun 2012 masa SPM.. Aku masatu memang jenis yang cakap tak pandang orang tak kira tempat. Kau baling sampah, aku balas balik. Aku buat tahi kau campak balik. Saling berbalas-balas. Sebab tu ada masa memang nak melayan kerenah spisis macam ni. Sebab aku pun tergolong sekali hahahah.

Tapi lama-lama bila dah besar, dah boleh fikir apa baik apa buruk, dah jadi malas nak ambil peduli perihal orang lain, lebih-lebih lagi perihal orang yang kita tahu memang tak suka kita. Kita dah tahu dia benci, kita duduk jauh-jauh lah kan.

Analogi dia sama dengan kita terserempak dengan anjing yang tengah menyalak sebab sangka kita ni pencuri. What do we do? We go away. We stay away from the dog as we can clearly see that they are barking and hating you. Do you go to the dog and try to play "catch" with it? No! You run and save yourself.

So in my story, i want to cut short all the details and go straight to the part where i decided to cut them people off my life. I really thought it would end the drama life that they are causing and deliberately wanting me to participate in their world.

Hahahahha guess what? The joke is on me.

Masa nilah kena hentam macam-macam. Kena tuduh pura-pura alim, hipokrit, anti couple, shit -talker lah apa lah.

Banyak dah kena label. Kena cakap itu ini. Menangis sebab kena tindas. Dimalukan. Diburukkan apatah lagi. Semua dah pernah kena.

Bear in mind; apa pun yang mereka cuba buat untuk jatuhkan kau, hold on, grasp your tormented mental firmly, and get a good grip on yourself.

One thing i learn about these people is that, the more you are reacting to the things they done to you, the more they will continue doing the same thing until they see you crumbling down and fall.

They consume your participation in the pathetic game they throw, in order to survive.

You are better. Be better.

1) Show them that they are worthless of your time.

2) They are not deserving of your efforts to be thinking about ways to get back to them.

3) Make it clear that you are a full grown up human that has no interest to mingle in such crazy society they are creating.

4) Consider them strangers and invisible. Make them beg for you to actually notice them.

And most important of all, forgive them and move on with your life.

Life will be so much easier trust me <3

SQS

Assalammualaikum cinta

hari ni aku tk tw knape aku rse eager sgt nk post kejayaan aku.this is because i want to appreciate myself.i love my self.love love sgt.hahaha.

ingat lagi seminggu before final, school aku ade buat penyampaian sijil dekan huu dean list.weh.spe tak bangge.jup bangge boleh riak jangan sekali tau adik adik.haha.

suasana di dlm dewan tu dy arrange ikut pointer.lgi tinggi pointer the chance utk kau duduk dpn lgi tinggi.huu.aku takdelah dpn sgt tpi bolehla depnla jugak.baris ketiga gitu.jup nak bangge jup.realize student duduk dpan aku.mostly chinese wow.tergugat sgtt.apelah korang makan smpi hebat gile nk mati.tpi aku tk deny la ade juga kawan kawan aku muslim juga okay.yg pling penting kt dlm tu ade org yg aku admire.admire tak bermakne suke eh.aku admire sbb dy the only muslim then male yg dpt dean list then bgi ucapan as wakil plajar pulak tu.he got 3.95 n he give a speech in english n he is very good speak in english.ya allah.ya allah.act he is ex mpp.mmgla.tp bnde tu bukan lahir kau terus pandai la kau need to practice.it takes a long long time to develop.haishh.

hm.after speech pnyampaian hadiah start.aku tk twla bile name aku disebut je aku rse nervous gile nk mampos.serious talk.aku pon tk tw.nasib baik la aku pandai cover.n when dekan gives a sijil she whspered tu me like "kekalkan tau"muke cantik nnti senang dpt kje.peh senyum aku sampai telinga.ALLAH je la tw perasaan aku time tu.n aku tk sngke one of my best friends Aiffa tkes my pic.i is terharu okay terharuu sgt.tq syg.

then sblum pnutup mestilah ade jamuan.time bfore jamuan kami ade sesi bergambar bersama dekan n kawan kawan.time tu aku rse penat lelah aku selama ni paid off.n bersyukur sebab Allah kurniakan rezeki ini.yes ade one of my favourite lecturer matrix said why nk berjaye susah?sbb supaye kite lbih menghargai kejayaan tu.btul jugak eh.bukan senang nk senang.i admit it.sebb aku ni bukan belajar sekali terus dpt but aku jenis kne ulang ulang n ulang.for certain subject jela.kadang rse macam kenapa la susah sgt nk faham.so kite kena check balik niat kite dgn ALLAH.sedikit sharing.jgn tinggal solat,Allah laknat tw tak taw.FAHAM.ok.good good.muah ciked.

Wajah isteri cerdik dan solehah.

ALHAMDULILLAH DONE QUIZ.

DOAKAN SYE N KAWAN KAWAN DAPAT VERY EXCELLENT MARKAH.AMIN

hi uolls.assalammualaikum.(da lame nk post sebenarnye)

alhamdulillah today 30 jun 2015 is end of the first year.seriously sis macam tak percaye je.sebab rasenye baru je daftar haritu.oh maii cepatnye lahhai masa berlalu.eh jup nak panggil sis ke akak? hm akak la.sis macam glamour sangatla pulak.ceyhh akak..yela next sem nk dapat junior.mestilah kne biasakan panggil akak.betul dak.kalau tak perasan muda bak hang.kah.

hm.by the way sebenarnya akak nak cerita something mengenai hidup akak as a degree students.pertama sekali hidup sebagai seorang mahasiswa mmg challenge.lagi challenging daripada hidup kat matrik.sebab apa?nk tahu tak?sebab bila once you hidup dekat UNIVERSITI totally your life berubah sebanyak 720 darjah.mak aii overnye.hihi.hal ini kerana (ayat skema)  bm A+ riak.dkat universiti terlalu banyak masa terluang dan anda yang perlu manage masa sendiri supaya perjalanan hidup anda smooth.n kalau nak tahu U akak ni mengamalkan sistem adddrop which mean you boleh buat sendiri jadual macam mana yang you nak.so kalau you rasa boleh carry on dengan banyak subjek..keep move on.tapi bagi akakla buat ape you amik banyak subjek tapi satu habuk pon you tak faham.yela kite nk gune ilmu tu bukannye untuk exam tpi for the entire of your llife.you need to apply when you exit from the university.

secondly, mengenai assignment atau project.bagi pengalaman akak la.pasal benda ni you tak boleh amik mudah tau.sebab ia sangat mempengaruhi markah utk final nanti.so kiranya kat u ni ade carry mark .faham tak.dyorang bg kerja berlambak bukan free free je tau.tapi sebab sometimes lecturer nk tlong naikkan markh students supaya tak again repeat.bagi aku segala benda tu bagus kalau kau bersungguh.sebab project ni lead to develop critical thinking.not more than that jangan sesekali meniru.hokkay.to be continued.entah bile hahaha

Friends

Hai uolss.ya Allah rasenye da  lame tak update blog.dulu beria sgt nk ade.kah yela iolls busy hokkay.so many work to do.n for ur information nak update blog ni perlukan thap kerajinan yang tinggi,lol

hm n topic harini kita nak bincang pasal friend! i dont know why.tetiba rse nk share plak.sebenarnye dari sekolah sampaila kt u i is really hard to make friends get long with me.maybe sbb aku jahat.hmm tak jugak.n aku tahu apa punca mungkin sebab the way i bercakap tak jugak.hm aku kadang pelik sebab aku rase  kalau nak ckp berkais kot.kadang sampai susah camne nak bercakap tanpa menyakitkan hati sesiapa.serious ni.iolls tak tipu.hee.mungkin ni adalah salah satu ujian oleh ALLAH untuk aku.yess aku menerima dgan redha.insyaallah.but i striving to be one to be a good friends.n one more thing sikap aku ni weird sikit.sebab actually aku ni tak berapa suka kalau org suka rapat dgn aku.for example.weh nanti jom pi kelas sesame.hey bukan aku tk suke tapi aku tanak kau buang masa utk aku.niat aku baik okay.takde maknanye aku nak rimas ke ape.aku harap kau faham one day.